You may have little knowledge on how much I care for you. From the moment I wake up, even though I had a good dream, my thoughts are all at once directed into thinking - "did you message me?", "did you have a good day at work?", "Was your knee still in pain?", "Who accompanied you during lunch?" & "Did you even eat anything the whole day?".

When I go to sleep, I'd check my phone and count two hours before to wonder what time is it there in Houston and if you are already awake. Thinking if it rained or was it sunny, I'd imagine you on weekends with a plaid button down shirt and shades on. Or wearing a grey and black tux for work. Your job in training, I'd wonder if you're there standing in front of many students, teaching what you do best and smiling when you've realized they've had a good time learning with you.

My thoughts have always found a space to worry and think about you. Maybe that's what long distance relationships are like. Your mere absence creates a heavier sense of longing and awful kind of worrying every now and then.

It kills to have this behavior. So I try to fancy myself over things to do at work. I make it a point to have a regular exercise regime weekly. And go out with friends over drinks and activities. So when I talk to you, I have so much to tell and so much to show you that I can be spontaneous when we'll be together someday.

The date may be ambiguous. I may not know when it will be. But I am trying to prepare and be my best self. So when the perfect time comes and you'll meet me, you won't regret the rendezvous and say, "You are worth it, babe."

Jan.08, 2016 for RTH